How my personality is developed through the process of socialization
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Loading ...When it comes to knowing my personality, for whom and what I am is I guess the most difficult question that I have to answer if someone would be asking. Because, who and what kind of a person I am right now is definitely difficult to understand. I don’t know if others having difficulty understanding me as a person, but for me, if I would ask myself, I could say that, it is really difficult to understand me sometimes. I don’t know why, but I just can’t understand why I behave so strange sometimes. Although I know that I’m not crazy, because I will not be in school if I’m crazy. There are times that I felt so bad about myself. Feels like a piece of me is lost. Sometimes it would take me a whole day trying to figure out what’s going on with me. But still, I can’t find any reasons why I act like that. I even ask my friends, and they say I’m a serious person, some say I’m not friendly, hard to deal with, but others say I’m funny, jamming, jolly and joker. Although I admit that I have those kinds of characteristics. That’s why it’s hard for me to understand what kind of behavior I have. Whether to be serious, funny, or maybe in between.
I think there are important factors why my behavior is different from other people. The first and the most influential is my family. Ever since I was a child and until now my family has been always there on all the trials and hardships in my life. I have the best family in the whole wide world that could offer. Actually, I have three parents which has been a part of my life since childhood. The first one is of course my real parents. My mother is a very quite and a little bit afraid to show up with other people. But I could say that she is a very friendly person. And my father is a very loving father. I could still remember when I was a child where my father would take me for a walk, and watch over the beautiful sites that I could ever see on my childhood days. And every time my father got home from work, there is always a present for us. But there is one thing I like the most from my father. And that is he’s passion for loving my mother. That he would give his own life for my mother. I’ve seen and prove it since I was a child. And that loving a person with all your heart is worth dying for, even if the person doesn’t love you as much as you do. Because sometimes love isn’t always fair. That’s one thing which I valued so much from my father. Giving and offering all the love in this world to your love ones. The second parents that I have, which is also my fathers older sister, had been very supportive not only for me and my younger brother’s and sister’s but also to my mother and father. My second parent is very religious. And they also had a big heart because they had contributed a lot on raising me, from material, emotional to spiritual things. The third parents I have is also my fathers older sister. A couple that has bad experiences on their past. I can say that they were strict to me, maybe because of the hardship that they had encountered. But anyway, they also showed love for me since I was a child and until now. Actually they were the one who sent me to college. It’s amazing that there are couples that I considered my parents. If there is such thing as luck, then they were the best luck in my entire life.
The other institution which contributes to my personality is the school. When I was in high school I have studied to a catholic school. A school that is administered by priest’s and nun’s. Although my second parents thought me how to pray the rosary, the school also helped widen my knowledge about recognizing the existence of our god. The school conducted a mass every week, and there is prayer vigil during month of the holy rosary. This activity is in fact the daily bread of my soul and which brings me closer to the lord. It is also in the school which I learn how to communicate and interact with other people. Since I was on a catholic school, lots of values education is thought to us by our teacher. This also helped a lot in making me a better person. It is also in school where I gain sight on what would I be in the future. And from school I started making my dreams come true.
A piece of my personality also comes from the church. The fact that my parents are religious and I was in a catholic school, the church is so influential to my whole being. Without it, I would not be the person that I am today. In fact, I joined an organization called “Philippine Bible Apostolate” or known as Catechists. In which every Sunday I was assigned to read gospels. From that organization, we have some sort of prayer meetings and life story we talked and shared to everyone in every week. Out of that, I also learn things even though I did not experience what they had experienced. I realize that you don’t have to experience in order to learn, because you can also learn through the experience of others by listening to them.
Before, I don’t want to be with so many people, I don’t want crowded places; I just want few people and I am with them if I have some transactions with them. After that I want to be alone again. When I reach college, there are also individuals and groups that influences my personality. From them I learned to work in a group. From them I learned how to value friendship. Through this stage I learned to adapt the different behavior of different people. I met people who are older than me, which also share there experiences in life, and therefore I learn out of those experiences.
It is also in this stage where I found the person whom I share my life with. The person that I want to be with, whenever I want to be alone. And through this person I have come to understand what my life is worth living for…
Although I was well socialized with so many people, I still have this kind of indeterminable character. Even I myself was having difficulty understanding my character as a person. Anyway, I guess the reason is that I have some things that I haven’t settled yet. And maybe if I achieved that goal, that’s the time, that I can find my self. The real and the true me!
Share ThisNote: This article was my school project in Social Science. I’m posting it online because I thought it’s worth sharing. I hope readers will like it.
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